LOOK

IT'S OK BECAUSE HE'LL JUST COME BACK TO LIFE??? HE'S DIED TWICE HERE BEFORE IT JUST KIND OF HURT REALLY BAD

but god he actually feels really bad for this, especially because he does like Carnelian a lot and is starting to realize 'huh maybe this is the kind of person Zero should've been' and he just kind of straight up lied to her and made her watch him die

but hey he did that to zero too, so